I am who I am
I am not God, Yahweh
I am not greater or equal
To Him or His glory
I am who I am
Because He created me
In His own image
With pre-planned design
I am who I am
Unique and my own self
I find confidence in me
Knowing I am no mistake
I am who I am
With my own character
My own fragrance
A heart created in love
I am who I am
Yet never better than Yahweh
For all who I am
Is because of who He is
Tell me is it bad
That romance is different for me
I don't need roses
Or a bunch of beautiful flowers
I don't need strawberries
Or the champagne to go with it
I don't need idealistic words
I don't need a date under the stars
I don't need to test you in bed
And i don't care how much you earn
Or how big your house is
None of this matters to me
Tell me is it bad
That what moves my heart
Is to see happiness in one's eyes
That unguarded excitement
All i desire is all your heart
Given freely without fear
I am happy to hear you talk
Share with me all that matters
Let me into your world
Let my spontaneity unravel
All your defenses and doubts
I want you to feel truly free
Be who you are deep within
Tell me is it bad
That i would rather build a life
Alongside someone special to me
That i would like to share with you
Life's struggles and hardships
I would love to wake up every day
In your arms greeted by your kiss
When i leave to go to work
I remember your perfume
Thinking of your smile
And the memories we've made
Keeps my heart warm and content
Is it bad
That i see romance as such:
Having long walks talking about life
Seeing your heart through your eyes
Learning about all that you are
Being able to see all your good traits
And even all the bad in balance
Discovering how much i care
About all that matters to you
And finding my tastes change
To be more like you
As our hearts sync together
Preparing us for life together
Where we will have each others' back
And have similar interests
And completely different interests
Tell me is it bad
That i am simple in love
I dont connect material items
With romance or love
But rather i prefer affection
Uniquely shared between us alone
I am not ambitious or career-driven
Even though i daydream constantly
I would rather think of you alone
This is who i am
Tell me is it bad
I ask you sincerely
Do not make decisions for us both
Without first asking me
Don't walk away from us
Even with good intentions
I don't need the stars
If i don't have the one i love
If I'm feel insecure or cold
Just hold me tight
Whisper in my ears kindly
That you are here for good
The pain i feel within me
Is so real and goes deep
It goes beyond what just was
You know the depth of it all
Yet as i read Your word
You tell me to focus on You
Your truth, Your love, Your peace
The more I focus on You
And meditate on Your truth
The less pain I'll feel within
It will fade away beyond my mind
You ask me to focus on You
To delight in all that You are
The more I delight in Your presence
The more I medidate on Your Word
The more and the deeper
You will will root me in You
So that Your love feeds me
And Your grace will nourish me
As I become established
In Your intended vision for me
I will flourish in Your Will
And all will see Your love in me
When people look on
And they wonder at my life
My career and how happy i am
I will be able to tell them
It was all You and You gave it all
I may not know yet Your plans
I know not Your vision for me
Yet i know Your plans will far exceed
Anything i could ever have dreamt
I will happier and more at peace
Resting at Your feet willingly
I only feel hurt now
Because my heart has been blinded
By that i have placed my focus on
But from now going forth
May my eyes be fixed on You
May my interest be in You
And my passion and devotion
May it be found in my faith for You
So i lose myself totally in You
And my stresses and fears
Will melt in Your presence
And will be another testimony
Of Your amazing glory and love
May others that look at my life
See both my weakness
And Your amazing work in me!
I stepped out of my shell
Into spontaneity
I took the risk
Unlike my nature
I let things race
Out of control
And stepped off
the edge of reason
All so I could
I could discover you
In the naive hope
Of capturing your heart
I stepped out
Outside myself
I exposed myself
Open and vulnerable
So you could trust me
I'm sorry
Sincerely sorry
For scarying you away
It was not my intention
To freak you out
Or to disrespect you
I didn't realise
My ways and charms
Of drawing you out
Only pushed you
Further away from me
Left alone in thought
To ponder over my actions
I'm overwhelmed,
Ashamed and broken
Of my actions
And all my inner scars
Remind me in silence
I'm going around
In circles non-stop
Repeating endlessly
Not only to my shame
But wrecking havock
In my wake...
I don't know your thoughts
Mysterious man
With your many secrets
As you keep it all inside
Yet I can only hope
My perceptions of you
Have been all real
And that you bear
The strength to overcome
The strength I lack
To overcome this
This which we've shared
And I hope deeply
That you will never
Forget me, broken and all
Sorry, sincerely
For any pain ive caused
Through my naivety
I have always sincerely
Liked getting to know
Who you are deep down
I loved how it all flowed
The connection
Between us so natural
I loved being with you
And didn't want to part
With you I enjoyed the moment
Letting it all flow
Letting go of resistance
Didn't even worry me
I wanted you, you only
Sorry sincerely
Sorry to bother you
I don't know how to let go
It felt all so real
So amazing and complete
I didn't even realise
I gave you my heart
Without even a thought
I've lost my sanity
And can't control my heart
Beating insanely fast
I find myself wishing
The pain within will fade
Sorry sincerely
For I don't know how
To stay spontaneous,
Fun and adventurous
As I was with you
For you brought this out
And took out my defenses
Without even realising it
With you I felt alive
As I opened my heart
Now I just want to hide
Deeper within myself
Behind my familiar mask
Sorry if this disappoints you
But on my own this is me
Guarded behind deep layers
Of masks and kindness
With time and space
You will hardly recognise
The woman you almost loved
My heart's beating a 1000 miles an hour
Emotions have my stomach in a knot
Got a headache from the endless series
Forced myself to embrace acceptance
In hopeless attempts to comfort my soul
Trying to communicate with the cause
Only brought me to a painful conclusion
Certain compromises should not be made
In the hope of rebuilding a love
I lost in the foolishness of my youth
Having seen many before her happy
A girl decided to risk her life and sanity
By grabbing a ladder to rise up
To touch the moon way above
With such passion and excitement
Yet despite her enthusiasm, she fell.
As she lay on the grass shattered
Staring at the moon above
She had to decide deep within
Whether to rise up once more
Or to stay a broken victim
Many strive to be strong and courageous
Yet as I lay here alone once more
I would much rather be a vulnerable girl
Than this hopeless woman I am
Unable yet again to retain love.
